Single Never Searching
how can a man see me finish
he meets me somewhere, at the mall shopping
at my job doing my work jeje
ah u be fine girl ooo
I like the way you carry yourself
you work so hard you must be educated
I spend money and time to dress myself
I take my time to carry my self well
can I please have your contact
I would like to get to know you some more
he seems likable enough tall dark and handsome
at least physically that's definitely my type
not even checking for his pockets yet
then we start to talk on the phone
the first day goes second day goes third day
a week or two we are going on a first date
I have gotten to know him and there seems to be chemistry
seeing him the second time
he looks even more handsome than the first
damn nigga, you can get it
then he's like I like you so much but there is something I want you to know
I am married but I really like you a lot
I have never done this before but I could not just pass up the opportunity to be with you
if you will have me I really want to be with you
I could have lied but we are both mature and I just wanted to be honest with you
at that moment I don't even know if my mind explodes or if my heart crashes
but there is this feeling that makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs but nothing comes out
it's like all my insides are confused my emotions my tongue my brain like am I sad mad or disappointed or do I just want to punch this fool in the face
I asked this question just two days ago when the same shit happened in the church
a married man takes my number me thinking it's of some innocent shit
then asks me to meet him at red roof inn what the fuck???
like what the fuck have I done to deserve this?
do I have too many piercings? do I smile too much?
do I have desperately written on my forehead please wipe it off
me here keeping myself the best I can
I'm pretty I bathe every day I work hard I don't expect anything from anyone
yet this grown-ass man who probably has daughters at home
he wants them to find good men but believes that's the best I deserve leftovers
not even leftovers but trash fuckin vomit the scum of the earth
like why do u think I don't deserve to find my own husband
you have to think if I'm busy fucking you
I definitely will not be out where I can meet the right person
to all you niggas I just want to say fuck you because you tried it.
you tried to make me think I ent worth shit but I know who I am
I might be single but I am not searching I am who I am
I love who I am and I will continue to love me
with or without someone to kiss and cuddle at night